I am great need of making something.. yet I do not have the materials or I just don't know where they are in the huge house where I now live in. I don't feel too comfortable to start randomly asking people if someone has a male vest...or any supplies that could help me build a cosplay.
Anyway that aside, I actually feel free today.. sleeping alone with music last night helped me very much.
I recently had a huge terrifying mind confusion, and of course it had to do with boys. BUT! now everything is at ease... I have a dear friend for whom I hope things stay that way, I could even consider him my best friend at the moment. On the other hand I have a very sympathetic boy that's been trying to make me smile every second with bizarre stories and silliness.
I have committed stupid things these past days, yet I do not regret doing so. But now I have to put myself together, I have finally decided and I am keeping my dear freakishly silly man: he who inspires me to talk more about my world and who makes me curious of his traveling adventures that I hope I can be part of someday, or even go to those places by myself.
I have now nothing to hide... I kissed, I talked way too much for the moment and I twirled around like a spirit in a magical realm where an oracle would be taunting the gods..
I may not actually be the immortal being that has 1722 years old... but I am the girl that wants to keep things in peace, cause no harm.. and have no misunderstandings and confusions for quite a while longer..
Thank you to both men for your interest in someone as confused and scared as me. Even if not read by any of you, my intentions are true.
I write because I just can't try and say it again with the best words.. hope this can be understood if not just knock at 213 and I can be as rough as I can.
"the kiss in the morning....yes, that kiss before you departed... was the kiss that made my head clear."
I hope I actually can spread my wings and smile in my next dream...
Anyway that aside, I actually feel free today.. sleeping alone with music last night helped me very much.
I recently had a huge terrifying mind confusion, and of course it had to do with boys. BUT! now everything is at ease... I have a dear friend for whom I hope things stay that way, I could even consider him my best friend at the moment. On the other hand I have a very sympathetic boy that's been trying to make me smile every second with bizarre stories and silliness.
I have committed stupid things these past days, yet I do not regret doing so. But now I have to put myself together, I have finally decided and I am keeping my dear freakishly silly man: he who inspires me to talk more about my world and who makes me curious of his traveling adventures that I hope I can be part of someday, or even go to those places by myself.
I have now nothing to hide... I kissed, I talked way too much for the moment and I twirled around like a spirit in a magical realm where an oracle would be taunting the gods..
I may not actually be the immortal being that has 1722 years old... but I am the girl that wants to keep things in peace, cause no harm.. and have no misunderstandings and confusions for quite a while longer..
Thank you to both men for your interest in someone as confused and scared as me. Even if not read by any of you, my intentions are true.
I write because I just can't try and say it again with the best words.. hope this can be understood if not just knock at 213 and I can be as rough as I can.
"the kiss in the morning....yes, that kiss before you departed... was the kiss that made my head clear."
I hope I actually can spread my wings and smile in my next dream...
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