ASK ME A QUESTION

Hey everyone! well, I just wanted to let you know that anyone can ask me questions.

so here's the link:


ASK ME ASK ME ANYTHING!

I promise I will respond anything you want.

Take care! and have lots of fun!

Necomimi ears

Hi everyone! I got my Necomimi ears after waiting for so long! I wish I could take a picture but I am sick and I look horrible..oh and my hair is bright pink so you would be surprised.

I spoiled myself and my prince yesterday.. we went out to eat and I bought a WoW figurine! and some Evangelion chopsticks.. 

I felt like such a nerd getting all excited and looking for figurines to buy. 

Well, I found this cute blog of a girl that I really loved her makeup.. and since I am running out of my make up I decided to buy the one recommended.. I love how cute they are and cheap! here's and example:

So I am going to have the cutest makeup ever.

On that note I really miss my goth lolita dresses, they really look cute on me. Oh well, I guess I should start being a more normal girl. 

BUT NIT TODAY! cause my ears are wiggling and that's awesome!

Long times..

From love to zombies, so far this year is going great!!! lots of pressure but everything is going well.

I am almost 6 months in a relationship with my dear prince. New and maybe frighting things are coming our way but we will totally conquer!

TOODLES!

After so long I have no drama and more happiness.

I am now a month with my beloved Andy, and I love him so much!

I've been drawing even more and my inspiration goes to the heavens!

I hope everyone around is happy....OH! and BTW I've been baking! so much delicious cakes!

:P ^_^ BYE BYE

Thoughts of Cosplay

Well, recently I have had the necessity to make cosplays.. I am thinking that once I get myself very well organized, I must make a cosplay...a really good one this time.

I may not be the most beautiful women in my entire house, nor the best built one....but hey! I can at least look good with a wig.

problems with building/making a good cosplay.... MONEY. yes, that monetary wall that prevents somethings to occur.. but oh well, improvisation is my forte. My house has so many things to offer, and I have friends that I know that may help me locate things.

My first mission is to get my wigs.. I'm quite sure the blonde one is arriving sooner that expected, its in san francisco apparently or just got out of there yesterday. The white silver one is yet to know.

Second thing is to grab the wig, run to my room.. put on my nice looking pants, the button shirt, the vest and totally rock the look for the day. Yes, I AM EXCITED.

Third... wait for the silver wig.. and see what should I wear with it
*stares at the free clothes pile, decides to dive in later*

AAAAAND I think that's about it... FYI that picture is found in this article: http://techgnotic.deviantart.com/journal/Cosplay-From-Fandom-to-Identity-284042598?utm_source=elnino&utm_medium=messagecenter&utm_campaign=021612_NET_Cosplay&utm_term=button

I would love to dress up like that someday.. it would be so fun.



For today the only thing to do is give my attention to Creed.... I've been so off recently, he deserves to tolerate me just for fun and giggles. ^_^ :P


Sayo!

Creativity and Finally Freedom

I am great need of making something.. yet I do not have the materials or I just don't know where they are in the huge house where I now live in. I don't feel too comfortable to start randomly asking people if someone has a male vest...or any supplies that could help me build a cosplay.

Anyway that aside, I actually feel free today.. sleeping alone with music last night helped me very much.

I recently had a huge terrifying mind confusion, and of course it had to do with boys. BUT! now everything is at ease... I have a dear friend for whom I hope things stay that way, I could even consider him my best friend at the moment. On the other hand I have a very sympathetic boy that's been trying to make me smile every second with bizarre stories and silliness.

I have committed stupid things these past days, yet I do not regret doing so. But now I have to put myself together, I have finally decided and I am keeping my dear freakishly silly man: he who inspires me to talk more about my world and who makes me curious of his traveling adventures that I hope I can be part of someday, or even go to those places by myself.

I have now nothing to hide... I kissed, I talked way too much for the moment and I twirled around like a spirit in a magical realm where an oracle would be taunting the gods..

I may not actually be the immortal being that has 1722 years old... but I am the girl that wants to keep things in peace, cause no harm.. and have no misunderstandings and confusions for quite a while longer..

Thank you to both men for your interest in someone as confused and scared as me. Even if not read by any of you, my intentions are true.

I write because I just can't try and say it again with the best words.. hope this can be understood if not just knock at 213 and I can be as rough as I can.

"the kiss in the morning....yes, that kiss before you departed... was the kiss that made my head clear."


I hope I actually can spread my wings and smile in my next dream...

~* Drawing by http://blackcatshooter.deviantart.com/

To her...

First of all..I would like to indicate that what is written is a translation of something I wrote so long ago.

She....

Likes to get her feet and hands wet as the rain slowly falls, yet she does not like to be completely wet without a sweatshirt

She prefers to cry when there's no light

Likes to watch old films that some people forget..

She likes being curious...

likes to wet her lips with the drops of water that remain at the tip of her fingers.

likes to watch people as she walks in the street...

Hates that someone is attracted to another person and such person never tells them their feelings, but she is afraid of love.

Hates being used by convenience.
Admires writers... even if she is horrible with her English grammar
Admires mysteries and horror

Likes to see her hair go crazy, and is curious to see how it looks long.

She loves imagining she is wearing a dress and that she has nice legs..even though she mostly can't wear dresses

loves vintage dresses, gothic dresses, elegant dresses.

likes to believe that someone thinks of her, even if it's not true.

loves to walk at night...something in her creates limitless imagination and makes her want to dance.

hates being looked at as she was an insect.

Loves to have her backpack beside her.

and she would love that someone would secretly get close to her and kiss her cheek for an unknown reason......

*Photo by http://onnellinen.deviantart.com/

*face palm/ head desk* mroww

Have you ever been scared....I mean terrified of opening your heart to someone other than friends.. like...I mean.. REALLY open your heart to another person that can be more than a friend?

well... I must say. I am terrified.. yes TERRIFIED!

AAAAAnd the world seems to send me all those people to tell me that I should also dedicate my life to other than family and friends, meaning to actually start forming my own family and all that shinaningans. They actually don't tell me this literally (only one uncle did) but it's in between all the lines and weird (yet funny) signals.

Ok Ok.. OK! I said it. oh...um.. well, yeah.. and there's something in that statement that bothers me even more.. I am a person... that well.. hasn't been in a city more than 7 years since I was 10 or 11?...and my family lives in another city..so I travel a lot. I think you got the message...I REALLY DON'T THINK I WILL EVER SETTLE! and yeah... that's what has been haunting me lately..

and if I do find a guy.. he better not be a complete pain or an idiot. just saying...I've had enough of those.

I know, I know.. "dude, wth with this girl?, she wants attention..blah blah blah" ...what ever, like I care LOL. I just had to ask for any advice... and didn't know who to ask exactly. so.. yeah. I made a note...

New discoveries.

Well I just found out I am apparently considered a plus size model... and that's interesting considering I'm a size 5 - 7.

It's just sad that that's plus size.. cause I may be considered 'normal' or even thinner than normal.. and actual plus size women feel bad to see that my size or a size more are what to be expected for them (I know, my mom is one of those women that is more than a size 9)

AND I just found out that maybe the whole modelling thing will change soon. which is nice in my opinion.

noooow something different.. I also found out that tattooed women are also models...and pretty damn sexy :P (well I actually didn't find out I just wanted to remark it).

GODDAMMIT!! I wanna be a tattooed bikini model now! >_< if only...

DA tag :P

Hi, well it's been a while... I've been working hard on my thesis and I finally think I finished ^_^

so.. anyway, I got tagged by a friend on DA. and I have to answer these questions:

1) What's your favorite pony? ----> pony?? um I don't remember the my little ponies' name, it's been a while since I actually saw or played with one (15 years I bet)
2) Everyday you're.... hungry!
3) Vampire or werewolf? depends on the sexiness?? hehe ok ok.. vampire, since they live long and are not hairy, and NO the twilight ones aren't vampires, they're fairies!
4) Ninja or Pirate? darn.. um a ninja pirate!
5) Zombie or Alien? Zombie
6) Wasn't that an efficient way to waste 3 questions? Yes, yes it was xD
7) Favorite subject in school. hmm I have no school anymore, until further notice, but in all my career, I would say herpetology or entomology
8) Favorite media of art hmm.. photography
9) What do you think of Skyrim? I don't know what that is...
10) Do you play League of Legends? yes, I play LoL... :P


picture

by ~pikagirl65neo

Ready for action

I'm getting ready to pump it up! literally I'm gonna go crazy... but I shall finish that thesis!! and I'll have a huge hammer to knock everyone out of my way!

Weird engagement thoughts.

Sometimes I think to myself..

"I think it would be much better if I were married...."
then, I stare at my fingers, I look at my rings, I look all around..
and I get up and go get some chocolate or anything that has chocolate in or on it.

I start eating it, I look at my dessert...then I say:
"But I don't even have a boyfriend!" and start laughing all the way back to the table where I was sitting before.

I look again my dessert and then look at the laptop monitor right in front of me.
Then out of nowhere I see a post of Portal engagement rings...I obviously think they are awesome!

I sit there again, look at my fingers and still eating the chocolate delicatessen.
I see my face in a reflection, smile and say:

"meh! I still have many to do, no time for boyfriend and friends at the same time anyway. And who would want to keep up with a girl that travels so much! likes anime, rock n roll music, frogs, and to dress up. Besides, I would need a traveler too, and that's already hard! oh well..."

I look at my last bits of dessert and smile again, just to say:

" MY GOD! I need more delicious chocolate before I keep on with my work! "

I laugh all the way mumbling a song I just invented for the love I have for chocolate. And I forget all about what I said before.

picture by

http://excez.deviantart.com/

Smile ^_^

Everyday seems like I have lots to do...yet I stress tons for so little, so it's not much.
I decided to work hard and have days to collect to memories with my friends.
So much thing seems to await this 9th and last semester.

I look forward with a smile, even if sick, with people yelling at me (like the other day that someone yelled a rude NO when I asked if they needed help, still helped anyway hahaha).

Finding new friends, keeping close my old friends and enjoying every second of my life.

I miss that other city because of who lives there...those people that made me feel at home.

I will see them someday, sooner or later. But now, I must smile and enjoy what I have her

so.... who wants to go out and play?

Thinking about...

Though I have lots of work I have been hanging out with my BFF and another really good friend of mine.

Been thinking lots about my future and also I hope it comes out as I see it ^_^

I also hope I get a kitty or a puppy in the future and a good job that helps my career.

wish me luck!

Such sweet sorrow...

Something I read by

Fantasydreams46.

And I just wanted to share it, besides I actually feel the same way when I part.

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CONVERSATION:

Tell me about something that made you sad.

Uh. Okay. Let me think. [Pause] I was sad when I sent you to the airport in San Antonio. That made me sad… You leaving again made me sad.

Yeah. That made me sad, too. Parting is always sad, but you know what's worse? It always gets better. The first couple times, you're like—she's leaving, I'm so sad I'm going to cry. And then, after a long time, you get used to it. That is sad.

Yeah. I understand.

Mm. Let's sleep now.

Okay.

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She fell into a slumber quickly. I soon heard her gentle and rhythmic breathing next to me. But I stayed awake to ponder her words. Did parting really get easier as time went by?

I don't think so. If else, I feel that it gets harder. More painful each time to see her turn her back on me and walk away. It's just that I've gotten stronger, and I've learned to smile when I wave goodbye. And cry later.

Parting is such sweet sorrow? Shakespeare, you dumbass. Parting is sorrow, and sorrow only.



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Thanks for reading.

New things

New things are coming to my world...and I think the world is actually smiling at me while hiding behind a tree! ^_^

Thoughts.

2011 seems to be the year where I can be myself more, where the changes are showing, where adventure starts and maybe where my future will be known.

So many things in my head: Love, Stress, Work, Happiness, Curiosity and Friendship.

My journey started at the begging of this year, where will it end?

The Dance..

After a long day and tired thoughts

I was wishing I could sleep and trance.

But out of the blue, as no one knows,

a friend asked me go to dance.

She struggled much, she struggled deep

until my will accepted thee,

so I went to her place and got ready

for a different night I was not ready.

We got to the dance, I was surprised

to see many people dancing aside.

And for my fortune I could say

I even started to like my day.

I met a boy, with gorgeous eyes

and he teached me how to move my feet.

The music played and I with ease

could dance fairly good indeed.

I danced as if I danced for hours

even felt I flew into the air..

well of course I smelled like flowers

and the scent spread from my hair..

Danced with many, danced for long

I even felt to sing a song.

I could not take away from my mind

that single boy that made me fly..

I met him there, we got along

he even stayed after all those songs.

We went back together

we sat together.

Since that day I have had a crush

for that boy who made me blush.

Love Prevails Death

At the end of my bed, she stands,
Darker then the shadows
Moonlight pulling her innocent face

From the darkness behind
What secrets hide behind her face?
Carved perfection like a mask
For all eternity in a minute passing

Our eyes locked in a stare
Deep within my chest
My heart beats in rhythm
Like a thousand drums

While all the while
Her eyes stare cold
Sparkling like set diamonds
She has me totally under her control

A hunger for lust burns within
Meanwhile her white silken gown
Flutters in the cool night breeze
From whence my entranced eyes

Break from hers; to admire her body
Her breasts, partially visible
Behind the translucent silk of her gown
Her smooth, soft skin the look of satin

White as fresh fallen snow
My mind, a torrent, a sea of emotions
Shallow fear yet I'm strangely calm
She walks toward me

Her beauty becoming
More apparent upon each step
But who is this mysterious stranger

Who graces my presence thus?

Her hand runs down my face
I try to speak but her finger
Silences my words
"Hush, speak only with your heart"

The words fall from her mouth
In whispered tones
Her touch feels cold as stone
As her arms wind round

My body like entwining ivy
Her fingers run sensuously
Through my long hair
She stares into my eyes again

Looking deep within
To my mind and soul
Her lips pout and glisten
In the moonlight

Oh how I want to kiss them
Passionately as my hands explore
Her body of sheer perfection
She stands up before me

Her gown drops to the floor

To fall at her feet
Her crimson lips form a smile
My pulse racing ever faster

My blood rushes round my veins
Like ten thousand wild horses
Our bodies embrace like entwined ivy
In each other's loving arms

The pure naked innocence

If this incredible passion could last forever
I would never look back beyond this night
Her moist luscious lips press

Firmly against mine
As I run my hands up
And down her back
Her tongue runs over my cheek

And down my neck
When I feel a sudden
Bolt of piercing pain
My body fills with a gradual weakening

My strength waning as she sucks from my neck
I fall back toward my bed
Barely able to move
I look to her and see blood

Drip from her mouth
Her eyes glow with an iridescent
Electric blue like the full moon
In the black satin night sky

She licks the blood lusciously
From her crimson lips
Her teeth long as canines
From a wolves mouth

Rapidly it becomes apparent
That this angelic vision
That stood before me
In the darkness of my room

Is nothing more
Than an animal of the night
A predatory vampire with
An insatiable hunger for blood

Fear courses through my body
For my very own mortality
Death seems only
A matter of heartbeats away

This creature before me
Still so beautiful in her human form
Yet now adorned with a demon face
She looks at me with a calming smile

Let fall these words I speak to you
Listen and you will learn
"You are now a vampire like myself
A demon creature of this eternal night

You shall live forever"
Her first intention was to kill me
And leave my blood-drained corpse behind
But her love for me prevailed.

-By Peter "Morpyre" Turner

The clover...

~~ Just a little message thats says the truth ~~

PLAY

Just play the music.. and let me fly..with a big smile..

"Friends are such a great thing... there like music you can't live without it..."

turn up the volume°°

hope..

I still have hope...

I love you... so much...

*I wish I wish with all my heart*

ShHh...

~~ Silence little lamb.. silence little thing..
People always say all those nasty things...
just be quite little monster don't let them catch you..
you won't like them to do so... I'll just watch you...

Silence little beauty, silence like a mime...
Look at them with those eyes that always have to shine...
be so tender, be so sweet.. be a little cupcake thing..
be yourself and give a smile.. so you can pass silently.

You're so beautiful..you're so sweet... thanks for giving me everything...

My life now shines...my life's so sweet...
thank you little girl for everything..

Now show your voice...
now show your love...
now look at all and sing a song...

now little girl...now little thing..
be yourself..a happy girl that can sing...

n_n

I'm Back to this blog..

many many days have pass since I left this blog..

talking about love and kisses..

well looks like there are no kisses for me anymore...

but there is and always will be love in my heart...

__________________

How can you believe in someone when there breaking with you..but they don't wanna go away?

thats what happend to me.. but he's the loser here...so I'll always have a smile and a cute one indeed..I won a new adventure n_n

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Music is one of many things that are worthy of being in our lives...

who ever hates it is kinda insane!

hehe..
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welcome me back to the blog scent...welcome back everyone who visited this place and still visits and takes a peak...

I'll write tommorrow.. the thing is what?

Like a doll..

Like a doll I am to you...

You treat me so sweet...

so tender and unique..

I do love you...

and you love me...

I'm your dearest treasure....

so unique...

You grab me so sweet..

you kiss me so deep...

you bite my flesh oh so tender...

you make me tremble..

I am your doll..

your sweet gorgeus and beatiful doll-

Apocalyptica..... S.O.S (anything but love)

Bound to your side and trapped in silence

Just a possession

Is this sex or only violence

That feeds your obsession

You send me to a broken state

Where I can take the pain just long enough

Then I am numb -then I just disappear

So go on infect me

Go on and scare me to death

Tell me I asked for it

Tell me I'll never forget

You could give me anything but love

Anything but love

Does it feel good to deny

Hurt me with nothing

Some sort of sick satisfaction

You Get from mindfucking

Stripped down to my naked core

The darkest corners of my mind are yours

That's where you live

That's where you breathe

So go on infect me

Go on and scare me to death

Dare me to leave you

Tell me I'll never forget

You could give me anything but love

Anything but love

Without any faith

Without any light

Condemn me to live

Condemn me to lie

Inside I am dead

So go on infect me

Go on and scare me to death

I'll be the victim

You'll be the voice in my head

You could give me anything but love

Anything but love

Mi hija...

Mi hermosa y adorada hija Nephthys...

en un futuro tendré una hija y espero ponerle ese nombre...me gusta mucho...

El nombre tiene historias..

http://www.touregypt.net/nephthys.htm

http://www.egipto.com/museo/dioses/eshtml/162.html

Ese nombre me gustó al leerlo...no por lo que signifique....

Mi primera vez..

Hola...pocos lectores...

El proximo 3, 4, o 5 de octubre....será mi primera vez en algo...

será la primera vez que voy a una convención...y la primera vez....que usaré un cosplay....luego les digo de quien jeje

Espero todo salga bien....he interesante....si me toman fotos....las publico...n_n

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I do ....I do

Quotes....

"Love means the body, the soul, the life, the entire being. We feel love as we feel the warmth of our blood, we breathe love as we breathe air, we hold it in ourselves as we hold our thoughts. Nothing more exists for us....The world is wonderful and beautiful and good beyond one's wildest imagination. Never, never, never could one conceive what love is, beforehand, never....Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart. Love is the only bow of life's dark cloud. It is the Morning and Evening Star. It shines upon the cradle of the babe, and sheds its radiance upon the quiet tomb. It is the Mother of Art, inspirer of poet, patriot, and philosopher. It is the air and light of every heart, builder of every home, kinder of every fire on every hearth, It was the first dream of immortality. It fills the world with melody. Love is the magician, the enchanter, that changes worthless things to joy, and makes right royal kings of common clay....O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life..."