Yes I know, I am no queen;that is why I called myself queen of nothing, because I am nothing.
Why do they say I am beautiful if I am really not?
Why do they dare say lies like that?
Why do they say "I shall dream about your face"?
Do they know that they are playing with my feelings?...I guess not, but don't you notice my fear to love?... I fear the most beautiful "feeling" just because I am scared to get more hurt.
Can you not notice that behind all those fake smiles...behing all this faked laughter lays my true sadness...locked up deep inside?
Some one once said.."you do not show us your feelings, you do not let them out...", so I guess they may have been thinking this to-*we want to know your life, why are you so depressed then happy?... we want to help when needed*-
One dear friend said that to me & I still have those words carved in my brain, just to tell my dear friend.-" I try, but I cannot.I do not know why, I sometimes overpass my feelings then to calm down I shove them back inside. I do not mean to be so anoying, there my feelings popping all at once... hope you understand, because my world is truly complicated..."-
