suicide club edit

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The Devil Loves You

Do you understand what I'm trying to say? Have you ever felt? Ever felt this way? Tainted with rage you can't drain away or it will cost you your life. I couldn't care more. Do you ever absorb what shouldn't be touched? Have you ever cared? Ever cared this much? Do you think it is I who is out of touch, or are you too scared to think at all? I couldn't care more. As your friends fall does it tear your heart? Do tears fill your eyes as your world falls apart?Do you notice at all,or are you sailing sublime? Am I completely alone?

"Death Of Season"

Of late, it's harder just to go outside To leave this deadspace with hatred, so alive Writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, I decay Killed by the weakness, but forced to return, turn it off I watch the stars as they fall from the sky I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying I feel the fallen stars encircle me now, as they cry Out there so quickly grows malignant tribes Posthuman extinction excels unrecognized Feeling surrounded, so bored with mortality, I decay All of this hatred is fucking real, turn it on... yeah I watch the stars as they fall from the sky I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying I feel the fallen stars encircle me now, as they cry It won't be all right despite what they say Just watch the stars tonight as they, as they disappear, disintegrate And I disintegrate 'cause this hate is fucking real And I hope to shade the world as stars go out and I disintegrate

I'm so stupid....

Lo que diré a continuación es un sentimiento que prefiero desahogar aqui & escrito...ya que sé que casi nadie entra a este blog de conocidos..... I'm happy, I feel I have friends I see a good friend but it looks like I´m a stranger... I feel stupid.... that friend doesn´t even notice I cry doesnt notice his friend I thought I had a friend.. but I guess I don't. I thought he noticed.. but now I don't.. I wish to die but I think a while... Is that the only way that he will notice? he or she... it doesn't matter.... I supposed I had a friend... & the person I never talked to came . That person looked worried.. that person did notice... then ONE "friend " noticed.. but that was all... I'm so stupid.. I thought they were my friends... I should have listened.. but I just ignored.. now I have it.. something hit me... now I know I have no friends at all.....

FUCK....me

Carajo!!!
por que??!!...por que existen los examenes?..no es suficiente con que hagamos el esfuerzo de escucharlos & anotar como esclavos todo lo que dicen & anotan en el pintarrón??...luego distraernos un poco con garabatos tontos??.....

Mañana Examen!! & peor aun...de FISICA!!!..... esa materia complicada & tonta...... parcial en lugar de semestral....Sí claro!!!.....lo que no saben o no se quieren dar cuenta es de que trata de todo lo que vimos en el semestre!!...en conclusion es como un semestral pequeño!!!

Mi cabeza estallará!!...... que complicado.......Bueno al parecer no cambiaran.... solo espero que mi cabeza no olvide lo estudiado......

El amor

¿Y el amor?Puede llevarte al cielo, pero también puede sumergirte en la más densa oscuridad;puede provocar el más dulce sueño y la más horrible pesadilla;puede calentarte con un beso y congelarte con un "Adiós!"Es lo más hermoso y lo más horrible.Amor...¿quién te conoce?Eres el desierto más arido y la selva más viva.Amor... amor.¿Por qué duele tanto amar?¿Por qué me importa tanto lo que ella hace?¿Por qué me afecta tanto lo que ella dice?Estoy enamorado pero más parece que estuvuiera enfermo.Lagrimas, materialización del amor!Sueños, ¿por qué huyen?Tranquilidad, ¿por qué no te apoderas de mí?Felicidad, ¿Por qué no vienes?Amor, eres espiritu y no carne y huesos, eres invisible a los ojos; hay gente que no entiende eso...Lágrimas, mudo lenguaje de amor.Una lágrima vale más que mil palabras.Lágrimas, materializacion del amor.Amor eres todo y nada...Amor...¿quién te conoce?

Don´t leave me...

Please don´t leave me......I fell....as if I were dying..please hug me.....but please, I beg you don´t leave me...

confusion...

I feel something for you.... but there's something in me.... I don't know what to do.. there's something that says NO to you... I have my friends.. I have you.. but there's something.. something that is so confusing... So I give you this note... with my heart all bloody.. & has a message for you & says... I'M SO SORRY....

Love Song For A Vampire

Come into these arms again
And lay your body down
The rhythm of this trembling heart
Is beating like a drum
It beats for you
It bleeds for you
It knows not how sounds
For it is the drum of drums
It is the song of songs

Once I had the rarest rose
That ever came to bloom
Cruel world chilled the bud
And stole my flower too soon
Oh ominence, oh hopelessness
To search the ends of time
For there is in all the world
No greater love than mine

Still falls the rain
Still falls the rain
Be mine forever

Let me be the only one
To keep you from the cold
Now the floor of Heaven's weighed
With stars of brightest gold
They shine for you
They shine for you
They burn for all to see
Come into these arms again
And set this spirit free



*_Annie Lennox_From: Bram Stoker's Dracula - the Motion Picture soundtrack*

No Mistery

You look into my eyes and see things you don't understand.
Am I a mystery? I think not.
You look at my smile;
You search for something that isn't there.
Am I a mystery? I think not.
You listen to my voice, and call me an angel.
This angel is flesh and blood,Not a doll to be put on show.
You see - I'm not a mystery.
I am me.

I am flesh and blood.
Touch me; I wont break.
There's no mystery here.
Caress me; feel the warmth.
I'm not a mystery; I am Woman.

Here I am - desires abound;
Relentless and sensuous - yours to caress
Like a flower; make me bloom.
Don't stop; not even to rest!
No mystery here; Just a Woman.
I feel the weight of your body against mine;
Your heaving breath upon my skin.
The most gentle touch on my thigh,
The soft nibbling on my breasts -
Moving slowly in a downward motion.
Now you see,
I'm no mystery; I am YOUR Woman.
I am all Woman.

Miss Murder

This is what I brought you, this you can keep
This is what I brought you may forget me
I promise to depart, just promise one thing
Kiss my eyes, and lay me to sleep

This is what I brought you, this you can keep
This is what I brought you may forget me
I promise you my heart, just promise to sing
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep

This is what I thought of, thought you’d need me
This is what I thought, so think me naive
I promise you a heart, you promise to be
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
Kiss my eyes and lay me to… sleep.

Hey Miss Murder, can I
Hey Miss Murder, can I
Make beauty stay if I
take my life?

With just a look they shook
And heavens bowed before him.
Simply a look can break your heart.
The stars that pierce the sky;
He left them all behind.
We’re left to wonder why
He left us all behind.

Dreams of his crash won’t pass
Or how they all adored him.
Beauty will last when spiraled down.
The stars that mystify
He left them all behind.
And how his children cry
He left us all behind.

What's the hook, the twist
within this furthest mystery?
I would gladly bet my life upon it.
At the cost of love your ray of light
Will fizzle out without hope.
When the empty sand just flowing through our empty skin,
Ever searching for what we were promised.
Reaching for the golden ring we'd never let go,
Who would ever let us put our filthy hands upon it?


*If you wish to see the video* Miss Murder Directors Cut
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ePkKkMRuFRI&search=miss%20murder

Death Not Being The Way

I held the knife so close to my heart. Like a foolish child I sat and I cried, Didn't realize what I had done, what I had tried. Tears mixed with blood, falling slowly to the ground. Covered in drops of blood, pulled myself up, in tears scribed: "To those who don't care, to those who can't see, Never Give up always thrive to be free. "Didn't know how many people would later cry. "Tried to be free, yet I see this isn't the way." Friend at the door, ran as fast as she could. Too weak to say I'm sorry, otherwise I would. In tears, looked at the blue sad day. When you come and see these drops of blood and me, This isn't the way my life was meant to be.

Life is a Prison

Life is a prison, Oh God let me out. No one to listen, To hear when you shout. Climb the walls of insanity, Ride the waves of despair. If you fall it don't matter, There's no one to care. Used to wish for a window, To see birds, trees and sky, But you're better without one - Stops you aiming too high. Watching freedom is painful, For those locked away. Seeing joy, love and happiness, Another price that you pay. Strong is good, weak is bad. Be it false, be it true. Your mind makes the choice, And enforces it too. Cell walls built by society, With rules to adhere. If you breach the acceptable, You had better beware. Hide the pain, carry on, Routine is the key. Don't let on that you're not, What you're pretending to be. Lock it all up inside you, How badly that bodes. Look out for that one day, When it all just explodes. Leaving naught but a shell, Base functionality too. But killing all else, That was uniquely you. So how do you grow, With a timebomb inside? Or how to defuse it, Without destroying its ride? You can't.

LA PURA VERDAD ...algo que me hizo reflexionar

Para los chicos:
Si las chicas quieren tener algo con ustedes.....
Te mira y sonrie.
te llama para pedirte la tarea......PERO DEMACIADAS VECES!!!!!!.
Se arregra el cabello mientras habla contigo.
Te toca el brazo cuando habla contigo.
Ella dice: "¡NO!, no te voy a decir quien me gusta" con una enorme sonrisa en la cara".
*Te pregunta muy interesada quien te gusta o con quien te gustaria salir.
*Cuando tu vas con un monton de amigos y amigas a el cine, y ella esta el mayor del tiempo contigo.
Critica a la chica que te gusta.
Sabe el nombre de TODA tu familia (incluyendo el perro)
Ella sabe todo sobre ti...como....Color favorito,comida favorita,e-mail,tipo de música que te gusta,que haces en tu tiempo libre,tus mejores amigos,deporte favorito..etc...
Sabe tu numero de teléfono y dirección.
Ella va intentar estar contigo el tiempo mas posible.


Para las muchachas:
El siempre te molesta cuando te enojas con el trata de hacer lo imposible para que lo perdones. *siempre trata de llamar tu atencion y siempre niega que gusta de vos..
Despues que tu le firmas el agenda a el , el escribe en el tuyo "como fue que nosotros nunca salimos??".
Cada vez que habla con vos se pone nervioso y se agarra las manos y hasta se llega aponer rojo!. *Si el se entera que tu tienes que ir a algun lado sola, insiste en acompañarte "por las dudas". *hay veces que trata de hacerte pasar celos y diciendo cosas como: "guaau, que minon, que piernas!!" y mirandote de reojo a ver que dices.
Si tu le cortas el telefono. El te llama otra vez.
El te llama por telefono y no hablan de nada importante.
Su voz se suaviza cuando habla contigo.
Imita tu risa, a veses tu te enojas, pero a veses te hace reir aun mas fuerte.
Te hace recordar de cosas estupidas que tu has hecho o dicho en algun momento.
A veses te mira directamente a los ojos

The vampire's rose

Gracie was 13. 13 when it all happened, the castle, the vampire, the roses. Even as she lay in black silk lined coffin she remembered, even when she died and floated away she remembered. It was April 26th 1888, around 11:30 p.m. The night seemed to swallow the world, but Gracie wasn't afraid. She loved the dark, she felt as though it whispered secrets into her ears and wrapped her in a warm cloak of safety. Tonight was the night that the vampire chose to come out. He had no name, or at least not one that Gracie remembered. All she remembered were those icy blue eyes that glittered in the night like two jewels she wanted to hold tightly in her hand. He walked up to her, cloak billowing in an unfelt wind and took her hand. The hand that was to warm his cold heart soon. They walked silently into the night, Gracie wondering where they were going, the vampire planning.It was only when the girl was seated across from the vampire dressed in a simple black dress that he found himself thinking of her. A beautiful black rose he called her. Her raven black hair became blue than back to black as the firelight danced over it with tiny incoherent steps.Night came to a close and the vampire sat in the garden, surrounded by his black death roses.It was than that he felt a a tiny tug on his sleeve. He looked down into the purple eyes of the child he had taken home that night. Wordlessly she climbed onto his lap and tucked her head under his chin. Involuntarily, his arms came around her and held her close. Blood tears fell from his eyes, and the girl looked up at him, her own eyes filled with pain. His pain. Now he knew more than ever he had to kill her. A human, let alone a child could not bear the burden of a vampire's pain. Leaning in slowly, he kissed her gently on the lips and sank his teeth into her neck. She did not struggle, just lay still in his arms, her own salty tears making tracks down her pale cheeks. As she died, images flowed into her brain. One stuck out and she clung to it like the vampire clung to the darkness. This was love. The pain, the tears, and the sacrifices. This was love. And so ends the story of the vampire's rose.

Notice

Out in the rain
I see your shadow,
I run in pain
& pass with sorrow.

As I stay away
I see you gaze,
you turn your face
& notice this day.

-You notice me
in the rain,
your lady's wet
with face in pain.

you only see
only me
freezeing to death
with cold indeed.-

You come close,
I step back,
you see
and hold on my hand.

Hold me and notice
that you always had
my hand, desire
and loveness only in this land.

written by:

My Dearest

unos videos fav...

bueno..esta cancion me gusta mucho jejeje..encontre el video & pues este es..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u6z5IQlkiiU&search=lacrimosa

una de atreyu:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzY0b14mWhU&search=atreyu

etc.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnPmL0ErmYQ&search=lacuna%20coil

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s7uQD0eYGFQ&search=siouxsie

Tears

I cry tonight as I sit here

Slacking off, as usual.

I am remembering

All of those happy moments we shared…

And I will never have another one.

I sit here and cry.

The knife shines in the light,

And it is soaked in my tears.

I sit here and cry

Tears of blood.

Suicide Note #2

To whomsoever may my lover be
when you read this poetry
know every poem I ever wrote
whether it is my own
or a quote
please remember every one
is the story my undone
sad, happy, death obsessed
when writing, not possessed
every word I wrote was true
ever word applies to you
scream away, I do not care
for if am no longer there
I talked and wrote of suicide
these ones which I wrote I wrote and I cried
as soon as all of these poems are readthen I will be officially dead

Death

Darkness..everywhere..everyone left me..
and Im all alone here lying.. crying and trying..
in a road of nowhere, of nothing..
and suddenly.. the light I was waiting all the time.. the light of release.. death..

confesions of a demon

In the corner is the dark knight

You can barely see him but always stays just out of sight

"Thy soul isn't ready for me"

He said when you try to fully see

"Soon you will be under my torn wing"

"For lust & greed I will bring"

"I am doomed to change men"

"To bring forth all their sin"

"I will welcome you with open arms"

"Except these arms will only bring you harm"

"My promises I will never keep"

"I will lock you in this eternal sleep"

"I will be those dark voices"

"That always mock you in your choices"

<<..have a nice night...let the bed bugs eat you>>

lost hopes.....

"No frunzas el entrecejo, nunca sabes quien se está enamorando de tu sonrisa."

(me gustaría que fuese cierto).

No creo que alguien pueda amar a esta mujer...

Una mujer que tristemente vaga....

Una mujer que prefiere observarlo a él,

pero teme decirle lo que siente...

que prefiere estar en las sombras viendolo pasar

viendolo & diciendose a si misma..."me gustas, pero no sé si tu a mi...

tengo miedo decirte,& aqui te tengo enfrente...me he quedado muda"...

One Good Friend

One good friend,
is all that you need.
They have to be honest,trust
worthy, and easy to read.

One person who will
always be on your side.
With no distrust or deceit,
with nothing to hide.

You have to be able
to tell them a secret.
And believe that, for sure,
they will always keep it.

You have to be ablet
o tell them your past.
If they try to comfort you,
your friendship will last.

You have to be able
to tell them whats wrong.
If they're a good friend,
they'll help you along.

Too bad best friends
are not easy to find.
Life would be easier,
if best friends were assigned.

and as they are not,
I shall tell you all
I have my friends
and I love them all....

Theyre the ones
that make me smile.
theyre the ones
that make me feel.

Theyre always near me
I they keep me near.
They hug me
and I feel truely great.

*_dedicated to my real friends...no names, because you guys know who you are.....remember me..because if I die & you never know..... I'll go back to tou guys & kiss you all good night....Your only about 6 of my best friends....C.N.G.S.A.D.....hugs & kisses... & hope you all have a fucking nice vacation!!!_*

no name....just untitled

the night falls in a heavy, suffocating cloak, cold and alone are we.the emotion for which you sacrifice yourselfflares once, then dies,swept away by a velvet ebon nothingness.all hope must surely perish.your heart beats no more.how could you cause such hurt?lost souls surround us, crying,sanctuary.

A Love not known

I think of you all the time
not knowing what you will say
after a while i get the guts
then I chicken out and be myself once again

I think of you from morning to night fall
I see you Monday true Friday
hoping to see you Saturday and Sunday
as I talk to you I want to tell you
but I never have the guts
all I can say

I show are you
I love you with all my heart but yet
I cant bear to tell you how I feel
if I do then you might say no
and that will make me cry inside
after a while ill black it out
still my love for you will
stay there forever

I know how I feel
and I know that i think of you
my poems are about you
since I see you I get the spark
without you I am nothing
but I really want to tell you
please read this .

I now it might be a
Small chance but for me that is alot my
mind filled with thoughts of you
everyday I cry everyday

I want to die a little
but you save me from myself
helping me out with one word or glance
I love you with all my heart just know that.....

The Death Lullaby

Oh my darling don't you cry, Its ok, you'll be all right. Forget demons, fight the pain, I swear every thing will be okay. Hear the fallen angels sing, Their hollowed voices, how they ring. Hum along, now, don't be shy, Because you, my love, will die tonight. Now don't be scared, now do not fright, Just take my hand and follow the light, I swear to you, you'll finally be free, Just take my hand, and you will see Do not cry, Im here for you, Im right here, love, just waiting for your cue. When you're ready, I'll set you free, When the darkness fades, and again you'll see.

adivina adivinador....

quien será??..... no sé....& tu???

what she's thinking

Kiss of inmortality

Swoop in through the windowas I rush from the curtains you grab me in your foul lust thrown on the worn bed I lay there helplessly as you come ever closer Your form changes again now from wings to arms your eyes pierce mine your presence, dark and cold. Yet your face is mysteriously charming beneath the evil appearance Our eyes lock, mine in horror yours in a deathly fantasy Then you give me a slow smileto show your incisor sharp teeth resistance is no longer a choice my eyes linger on you sensually You malice gleams with beauty A solace waiting to be destroyed All now I can desire is you As you take my soul with your smile I do not protestas you trespass over the boundaries I'm lost in a tranceby your deadly stare. Silently, you unsheathe your cloak slipping off your silk shirt softly you crawl on top I can only watch, paralyzed whether in fear or lustas your charm takes hold I fall into ecstasy with you. and you give your sins to me. soothingly you begin to caress my neck under the tangling sheets we stay as my purity is stolen away Innocence means nothing more to me You twirl my hair in your long fingernails and I shutter at such a feeling as your claws stroke my veins I would have run and hid for my life if you were not so amazingly beautiful And I would have shivered in fear if your arms were not around me so tight calmly you look into my questioning eyes I can only hope you will end my agony fast I know I've fallen hard in death's arms but its better than dying in a lonely way my life, your elixir, it all the same I'll feed off your love as you feed of my blood pierce my skin with your smile and fangs as my face becomes paler every second I will remember you with no regrets to my death but I had no clue you had another surprise in store.... You say you can make me be with you forever If I am strong and willing enough to live and give in and we can fly through the night for eternity The opportunity is too exciting to pass up so I agree to your bribes to be yours eternally and the only way you can do it is to give me the sweet, agonizing, luscious kiss of immorality. with razor sharp claws you willingly scrape yourself so the blood will flow and even as I am fading away from you painful bite you lean closer to me I struggle to breath drip by drip the blood is draining from me you wait till the last moment before my heart gives out then a final kiss you give your lips gushing with blood touch mine that have become so cold. the instant your tongue caresses mine the life flows back into mestronger...love lier than before I am consumed by your gaze you don't pull away too fast but linger for a moment we lay there together for a while curled up in the blood-stained sheets the two wound punctures on my neck heal instantly by the vampires power Hand in hand, we step up to the window you first flew through to capture me once was you victim, I am now a lover together we fall from the 11 stories high singing sweet songs of love and lust and right before we crash to the ground We spread our wings and off into the night we fly the full moon ever above us always watching as we fly together for eternity because you gave me the kiss of immortality.