Cannibal Roses

face palm/ head desk mroww

2012-01-07T18:27:00.003-08:00

Have you ever been scared....I mean terrified of opening your heart to someone other than friends.. like...I mean.. REALLY open your heart to another person that can be more than a friend?

well... I must say. I am terrified.. yes TERRIFIED!

AAAAAnd the world seems to send me all those people to tell me that I should also dedicate my life to other than family and friends, meaning to actually start forming my own family and all that shinaningans. They actually don't tell me this literally (only one uncle did) but it's in between all the lines and weird (yet funny) signals.

Ok Ok.. OK! I said it. oh...um.. well, yeah.. and there's something in that statement that bothers me even more.. I am a person... that well.. hasn't been in a city more than 7 years since I was 10 or 11?...and my family lives in another city..so I travel a lot. I think you got the message...I REALLY DON'T THINK I WILL EVER SETTLE! and yeah... that's what has been haunting me lately..

and if I do find a guy.. he better not be a complete pain or an idiot. just saying...I've had enough of those.

I know, I know.. "dude, wth with this girl?, she wants attention..blah blah blah" ...what ever, like I care LOL. I just had to ask for any advice... and didn't know who to ask exactly. so.. yeah. I made a note...

New discoveries.

2011-12-12T07:23:00.002-08:00

Well I just found out I am apparently considered a plus size model... and that's interesting considering I'm a size 5 - 7.

It's just sad that that's plus size.. cause I may be considered 'normal' or even thinner than normal.. and actual plus size women feel bad to see that my size or a size more are what to be expected for them (I know, my mom is one of those women that is more than a size 9)

AND I just found out that maybe the whole modelling thing will change soon. which is nice in my opinion.

noooow something different.. I also found out that tattooed women are also models...and pretty damn sexy :P (well I actually didn't find out I just wanted to remark it).

GODDAMMIT!! I wanna be a tattooed bikini model now! >_< if only...

DA tag :P

2011-12-05T21:02:00.004-08:00

Hi, well it's been a while... I've been working hard on my thesis and I finally think I finished ^_^

so.. anyway, I got tagged by a friend on DA. and I have to answer these questions:

1) What's your favorite pony? ----> pony?? um I don't remember the my little ponies' name, it's been a while since I actually saw or played with one (15 years I bet)
2) Everyday you're.... hungry!
3) Vampire or werewolf? depends on the sexiness?? hehe ok ok.. vampire, since they live long and are not hairy, and NO the twilight ones aren't vampires, they're fairies!
4) Ninja or Pirate? darn.. um a ninja pirate!
5) Zombie or Alien? Zombie
6) Wasn't that an efficient way to waste 3 questions? Yes, yes it was xD
7) Favorite subject in school. hmm I have no school anymore, until further notice, but in all my career, I would say herpetology or entomology
8) Favorite media of art hmm.. photography
9) What do you think of Skyrim? I don't know what that is...
10) Do you play League of Legends? yes, I play LoL... :P

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by ~pikagirl65neo

Ready for action

2011-10-31T17:51:00.002-07:00

I'm getting ready to pump it up! literally I'm gonna go crazy... but I shall finish that thesis!! and I'll have a huge hammer to knock everyone out of my way!

Weird engagement thoughts.

2011-09-11T09:30:00.003-07:00

Sometimes I think to myself..

"I think it would be much better if I were married...."
then, I stare at my fingers, I look at my rings, I look all around..
and I get up and go get some chocolate or anything that has chocolate in or on it.

I start eating it, I look at my dessert...then I say:
"But I don't even have a boyfriend!" and start laughing all the way back to the table where I was sitting before.

I look again my dessert and then look at the laptop monitor right in front of me.
Then out of nowhere I see a post of Portal engagement rings...I obviously think they are awesome!

I sit there again, look at my fingers and still eating the chocolate delicatessen.
I see my face in a reflection, smile and say:

"meh! I still have many to do, no time for boyfriend and friends at the same time anyway. And who would want to keep up with a girl that travels so much! likes anime, rock n roll music, frogs, and to dress up. Besides, I would need a traveler too, and that's already hard! oh well..."

I look at my last bits of dessert and smile again, just to say:

" MY GOD! I need more delicious chocolate before I keep on with my work! "

I laugh all the way mumbling a song I just invented for the love I have for chocolate. And I forget all about what I said before.

picture by

http://excez.deviantart.com/

Smile ^_^

2011-09-10T11:12:00.002-07:00

Everyday seems like I have lots to do...yet I stress tons for so little, so it's not much.
I decided to work hard and have days to collect to memories with my friends.
So much thing seems to await this 9th and last semester.

I look forward with a smile, even if sick, with people yelling at me (like the other day that someone yelled a rude NO when I asked if they needed help, still helped anyway hahaha).

Finding new friends, keeping close my old friends and enjoying every second of my life.

I miss that other city because of who lives there...those people that made me feel at home.

I will see them someday, sooner or later. But now, I must smile and enjoy what I have her

so.... who wants to go out and play?

Thinking about...

2011-09-04T12:19:00.003-07:00

Though I have lots of work I have been hanging out with my BFF and another really good friend of mine.

Been thinking lots about my future and also I hope it comes out as I see it ^_^

I also hope I get a kitty or a puppy in the future and a good job that helps my career.

wish me luck!

Such sweet sorrow...

2011-07-18T08:45:00.003-07:00

Something I read by
Fantasydreams46.

And I just wanted to share it, besides I actually feel the same way when I part.

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CONVERSATION:

Tell me about something that made you sad.

Uh. Okay. Let me think. [Pause] I was sad when I sent you to the airport in San Antonio. That made me sad… You leaving again made me sad.

Yeah. That made me sad, too. Parting is always sad, but you know what's worse? It always gets better. The first couple times, you're like—she's leaving, I'm so sad I'm going to cry. And then, after a long time, you get used to it. That is sad.

Yeah. I understand.

Mm. Let's sleep now.

Okay.

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She fell into a slumber quickly. I soon heard her gentle and rhythmic breathing next to me. But I stayed awake to ponder her words. Did parting really get easier as time went by?

I don't think so. If else, I feel that it gets harder. More painful each time to see her turn her back on me and walk away. It's just that I've gotten stronger, and I've learned to smile when I wave goodbye. And cry later.

Parting is such sweet sorrow? Shakespeare, you dumbass. Parting is sorrow, and sorrow only.

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Thanks for reading.

New things

2011-07-13T11:39:00.003-07:00

New things are coming to my world...and I think the world is actually smiling at me while hiding behind a tree! ^_^

Thoughts.

2011-06-22T12:16:00.003-07:00

2011 seems to be the year where I can be myself more, where the changes are showing, where adventure starts and maybe where my future will be known.

So many things in my head: Love, Stress, Work, Happiness, Curiosity and Friendship.

My journey started at the begging of this year, where will it end?

The Dance..

2011-02-21T23:17:00.004-08:00

After a long day and tired thoughts

I was wishing I could sleep and trance.

But out of the blue, as no one knows,

a friend asked me go to dance.

She struggled much, she struggled deep

until my will accepted thee,

so I went to her place and got ready

for a different night I was not ready.

We got to the dance, I was surprised

to see many people dancing aside.

And for my fortune I could say

I even started to like my day.

I met a boy, with gorgeous eyes

and he teached me how to move my feet.

The music played and I with ease

could dance fairly good indeed.

I danced as if I danced for hours

even felt I flew into the air..

well of course I smelled like flowers

and the scent spread from my hair..

Danced with many, danced for long

I even felt to sing a song.

I could not take away from my mind

that single boy that made me fly..

I met him there, we got along

he even stayed after all those songs.

We went back together

we sat together.

Since that day I have had a crush

for that boy who made me blush.

Love Prevails Death

2010-10-25T17:23:00.004-07:00

At the end of my bed, she stands,
Darker then the shadows
Moonlight pulling her innocent face

From the darkness behind
What secrets hide behind her face?
Carved perfection like a mask
For all eternity in a minute passing

Our eyes locked in a stare
Deep within my chest
My heart beats in rhythm
Like a thousand drums

While all the while
Her eyes stare cold
Sparkling like set diamonds
She has me totally under her control

A hunger for lust burns within
Meanwhile her white silken gown
Flutters in the cool night breeze
From whence my entranced eyes

Break from hers; to admire her body
Her breasts, partially visible
Behind the translucent silk of her gown
Her smooth, soft skin the look of satin

White as fresh fallen snow
My mind, a torrent, a sea of emotions
Shallow fear yet I'm strangely calm
She walks toward me

Her beauty becoming
More apparent upon each step
But who is this mysterious stranger

Who graces my presence thus?

Her hand runs down my face
I try to speak but her finger
Silences my words
"Hush, speak only with your heart"

The words fall from her mouth
In whispered tones
Her touch feels cold as stone
As her arms wind round

My body like entwining ivy
Her fingers run sensuously
Through my long hair
She stares into my eyes again

Looking deep within
To my mind and soul
Her lips pout and glisten
In the moonlight

Oh how I want to kiss them
Passionately as my hands explore
Her body of sheer perfection
She stands up before me

Her gown drops to the floor

To fall at her feet
Her crimson lips form a smile
My pulse racing ever faster

My blood rushes round my veins
Like ten thousand wild horses
Our bodies embrace like entwined ivy
In each other's loving arms

The pure naked innocence

If this incredible passion could last forever
I would never look back beyond this night
Her moist luscious lips press

Firmly against mine
As I run my hands up
And down her back
Her tongue runs over my cheek

And down my neck
When I feel a sudden
Bolt of piercing pain
My body fills with a gradual weakening

My strength waning as she sucks from my neck
I fall back toward my bed
Barely able to move
I look to her and see blood

Drip from her mouth
Her eyes glow with an iridescent
Electric blue like the full moon
In the black satin night sky

She licks the blood lusciously
From her crimson lips
Her teeth long as canines
From a wolves mouth

Rapidly it becomes apparent
That this angelic vision
That stood before me
In the darkness of my room

Is nothing more
Than an animal of the night
A predatory vampire with
An insatiable hunger for blood

Fear courses through my body
For my very own mortality
Death seems only
A matter of heartbeats away

This creature before me
Still so beautiful in her human form
Yet now adorned with a demon face
She looks at me with a calming smile

Let fall these words I speak to you
Listen and you will learn
"You are now a vampire like myself
A demon creature of this eternal night

You shall live forever"
Her first intention was to kill me
And leave my blood-drained corpse behind
But her love for me prevailed.

-By Peter "Morpyre" Turner

The clover...

2010-05-11T16:39:00.000-07:00

~~ Just a little message thats says the truth ~~

PLAY

2010-04-28T14:54:00.002-07:00

Just play the music.. and let me fly..with a big smile..

"Friends are such a great thing... there like music you can't live without it..."

turn up the volume°°

hope..

2010-04-21T17:31:00.001-07:00

I still have hope...

I love you... so much...

*I wish I wish with all my heart*

ShHh...

2010-04-14T18:54:00.004-07:00

~~ Silence little lamb.. silence little thing..
People always say all those nasty things...
just be quite little monster don't let them catch you..
you won't like them to do so... I'll just watch you...

Silence little beauty, silence like a mime...
Look at them with those eyes that always have to shine...
be so tender, be so sweet.. be a little cupcake thing..
be yourself and give a smile.. so you can pass silently.

You're so beautiful..you're so sweet... thanks for giving me everything...

My life now shines...my life's so sweet...
thank you little girl for everything..

Now show your voice...
now show your love...
now look at all and sing a song...

now little girl...now little thing..
be yourself..a happy girl that can sing...

n_n

I'm Back to this blog..

2010-04-12T13:46:00.002-07:00

many many days have pass since I left this blog..

talking about love and kisses..

well looks like there are no kisses for me anymore...

but there is and always will be love in my heart...

__________________

How can you believe in someone when there breaking with you..but they don't wanna go away?

thats what happend to me.. but he's the loser here...so I'll always have a smile and a cute one indeed..I won a new adventure n_n

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Music is one of many things that are worthy of being in our lives...

who ever hates it is kinda insane!

hehe..
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welcome me back to the blog scent...welcome back everyone who visited this place and still visits and takes a peak...

I'll write tommorrow.. the thing is what?

Like a doll..

2008-12-20T20:02:00.003-08:00

Like a doll I am to you...

You treat me so sweet...

so tender and unique..

I do love you...

and you love me...

I'm your dearest treasure....

so unique...

You grab me so sweet..

you kiss me so deep...

you bite my flesh oh so tender...

you make me tremble..

I am your doll..

your sweet gorgeus and beatiful doll-

Apocalyptica..... S.O.S (anything but love)

2008-11-27T17:21:00.004-08:00

Bound to your side and trapped in silence

Just a possession

Is this sex or only violence

That feeds your obsession

You send me to a broken state

Where I can take the pain just long enough

Then I am numb -then I just disappear

So go on infect me

Go on and scare me to death

Tell me I asked for it

Tell me I'll never forget

You could give me anything but love

Anything but love

Does it feel good to deny

Hurt me with nothing

Some sort of sick satisfaction

You Get from mindfucking

Stripped down to my naked core

The darkest corners of my mind are yours

That's where you live

That's where you breathe

So go on infect me

Go on and scare me to death

Dare me to leave you

Tell me I'll never forget

You could give me anything but love

Anything but love

Without any faith

Without any light

Condemn me to live

Condemn me to lie

Inside I am dead

So go on infect me

Go on and scare me to death

I'll be the victim

You'll be the voice in my head

You could give me anything but love

Anything but love

Mi hija...

2008-10-22T14:34:00.003-07:00

Mi hermosa y adorada hija Nephthys...

en un futuro tendré una hija y espero ponerle ese nombre...me gusta mucho...

El nombre tiene historias..

http://www.touregypt.net/nephthys.htm

http://www.egipto.com/museo/dioses/eshtml/162.html

Ese nombre me gustó al leerlo...no por lo que signifique....

Mi primera vez..

2008-09-24T21:21:00.004-07:00

Hola...pocos lectores...

El proximo 3, 4, o 5 de octubre....será mi primera vez en algo...

será la primera vez que voy a una convención...y la primera vez....que usaré un cosplay....luego les digo de quien jeje

Espero todo salga bien....he interesante....si me toman fotos....las publico...n_n

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I do ....I do

2008-09-12T17:46:00.000-07:00

Quotes....

2008-06-30T12:13:00.001-07:00

"Love means the body, the soul, the life, the entire being. We feel love as we feel the warmth of our blood, we breathe love as we breathe air, we hold it in ourselves as we hold our thoughts. Nothing more exists for us....The world is wonderful and beautiful and good beyond one's wildest imagination. Never, never, never could one conceive what love is, beforehand, never....Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart. Love is the only bow of life's dark cloud. It is the Morning and Evening Star. It shines upon the cradle of the babe, and sheds its radiance upon the quiet tomb. It is the Mother of Art, inspirer of poet, patriot, and philosopher. It is the air and light of every heart, builder of every home, kinder of every fire on every hearth, It was the first dream of immortality. It fills the world with melody. Love is the magician, the enchanter, that changes worthless things to joy, and makes right royal kings of common clay....O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life..."

I Have Found What You Are Like

2008-06-03T10:59:00.002-07:00

I have found what you are like
the rain

(Who feathers frightened fields
with the superior dust-of-sleep. wields
easily the pale club of the wind
and swirled justly souls of flower strike
the air in utterable coolnessdeeds of gren thrilling light
with thinned
newfragile yellows
lurch and press
--in the woods
which
stutter
and
sing
And the coolness of your smile is
stirring of birds between my arms;but
I should rather than anything
have(almost when hugeness will shut
quietly)almost,
your kiss

ee cummings

I Carry Your Heart With Me

2008-06-03T10:02:00.002-07:00

I carry your heart with me(I carry it in

my heart)I am never without it(anywhere

I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

I fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)I want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart(I carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

-Vaya cosas...-

2008-04-10T18:06:00.006-07:00

llega siempre algún momento en el que se hace en la vida... algo que creyó no hacer tal vez nunca...

Para mi desfortuna o quizá asombro...hace algún tiempo me metí en algo que nunca creí meterme...

En el mundo de las "reinas"...esas mujeres que según por su belleza son representantes de algo...
Y yo soy ahora una de ellas, pero en mi caso no creo que haya sido por belleza...

Ahora tendré que atravesar ese mundo...ese mundo que no me interesaba..y que ahora me da curiosidad saber que me ocurrirá....

Se aproxima, según lo que he escuchado, un tipo de concurso donde elegirán a una reina de área...competiré por ser reina de ciencias biologicas entre otras mujeres de las facultades vecinas que forman parte y creo que puede llegar a mayores...

soy reina de mi facultad...soy reina de biología

-_Esa melodia_-

2007-12-19T22:29:00.000-08:00

Siempre que me encuentro junto a ti, esa hermosa melodia recorre mi mente... No se de donde viene o donde la he escuchado...Creo que sabes cual...Esa melodia que me hace desearte más y más..... que me hace sonreir..que me hace sentir y recordarte mucho más...

..Aquella sonrisa..

2007-11-20T19:39:00.000-08:00

Aquella sonrisa que veo en tu rostro es la que me llena de alegria..tan contagiosa, hermosa..y tan llena de cariño...

Una sonrisa que me hace sentir un cosquilleo extra en mi estómago...

FeEeEeLiCiDaDeS A ti!!!!!

2007-11-15T20:29:00.001-08:00

Primero para el día Sabado 17 de Noviembre... A una gRaAn Amiga!!! Feliz cumpleaños... que cumplas muchos muchos más.... y que sigas igual de bella o más..

¡¡Feliz Cumpleaños!!

Happy Birthday!!

Joyeux anniversaire ! !

Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!!

Buon compleanno!!

С днем рождения!!

誕生日おめでとう!!

"Datos curioso...y probablemente ciertos..."

2007-09-25T16:36:00.000-07:00

1. Cuando dos personas se aman, no importa la distancia ni importa la edad.
2. Si dos personas quieren estar juntas, lo unico importa es el amor que se tienen.
3. No incluyas a otra persona para olvidarte de la o el que amas.
4. No rompas con la persona que amas solo porque otra persona proteste de que ustedes dos estan juntos.
5. Bajo ninguna circunstancia te dejes, te ama.
6. Si amas a una persona diselo, no importa la respuesta; creo que no hay nada que perder en intentarlo.

...Cosas...

2007-09-25T16:08:00.000-07:00

¿ Por qué se tiene la mentalidad de que los examenes son para reconocer a gente inteligente?

A mi punto de vista los examenes son para probar la capacidad de retener datos en la mente... pero se me es tonto tener que poner en un examen conceptos que no serviran de mucho...

Bravo..

2007-08-07T17:00:00.000-07:00

--Hermoso dibujo .... Realmente me encantó--

::..SeCrEtsS..::

2007-06-06T20:39:00.000-07:00

Adios..

2007-05-31T14:31:00.000-07:00

Ha llegado el día en que nos damos nuevamente cuenta que ya no somos niños, donde nos afrontan más responsabilidades....y claramente donde aprenderemos mucho más, al igual que utilizaremos nuestros conocimientos adquiridos para salir adelante..

Nos graduamos de la preparatoria.... Deseo a todo aquel que visite este espacio y sea de mi generación y/o sea un amigo, que cumpla todo lo que desee...

Extrañaré a los que se vayan lejos, a los que no vuelva a ver....recuerden que probablemente nos veremos en unos años más...

Sólo queda divertirnos mañana, cómo nunca lo habíamos hecho*...mañana nuestro último día de clases...

*300 en nuestra generación....somos honorablemente espartanos....
Matemos mañana al enemigo....matemos persas!!!....
Esparta!!!! --AU!! AU!! AUU!!--

(simplemente nunca olvidaré la solidaridad de los nuestros, siempre seremos la mejor generación)*

I Want to Grow old With you

2007-05-22T19:13:00.000-07:00

I wanna make you smile whenever youre sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

Ill get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

Ill miss you
Ill kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Ill need you
Ill feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if youve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

Día de las Madres

2007-05-10T19:46:00.000-07:00

"Ser madre es destruirse para erigir un porvenir mejor"

En este sacrificio reside la más alta sublimidad y la más pura belleza de la mujer.

Quiero desearle lo mejor a mi madre...

Aquella mujer que ha estado conmigo y que siempre suelo extrañar....

La dama que aun a mi edad quiere vestirme en ocasiones, no desea verme llorar, que aun juega conmigo tal como si fuesemos niñas.... a esa mujer que aparte de ser mi madre, es mi amiga...

Recuerda madre que aunque estemos fisicamente lejos, siempre mi espiritu está junto a ti...

Te quiero mucho Mami....te quiero mucho Elkiux!!!

**¿Jugamos mañana y el día que sigue madre?**

Smile!!

2007-05-10T17:50:00.000-07:00

.....Remmember always to smile to the people you care....it really makes you feel good inside...

.....Recuerda siempre sonreirle a las personas que estimas....realmente te hace sentir bien por dentro...

Your song

2007-04-30T19:01:00.000-07:00

My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on
So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is well I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
And you can tell everybodyThis is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Declaración...

2007-04-30T07:36:00.000-07:00

Tanto tiempo he pasado aqui, y realmente he pensado en renunciar...

me ha dado el Síndrome clásico de falta de talento y realmente no he logrado escribir, solo he logrado recordar...

Mis amistades están distantes, al igual que mi amad0...ellos intentan saber el por qué simplemente me he encerrado en un mundo de recuerdos...creo que necesito regresar..

Perdonen si mi vista parece estar muerta, si lloro al estar con vos, perdonen por todo lo que les he hecho..perdonen por no despertar...

Melodies...

2007-04-24T22:50:00.000-07:00

The greatest thing you'll ever know is to love and be loved in return...

Cold

2007-04-19T19:01:00.000-07:00

The lake is frozen over

The trees are white with snow

and all around reminders of you

are everywhere I go

Seasons..

2007-04-16T18:17:00.000-07:00

Seasons may change..winter to spring..I love you until thee end of time.

Pequeños detalles...

2007-04-08T17:11:00.000-07:00

¿Acaso usted lector no cree que un pequeño detalle hace toda una diferencia?.....

Sola..

2007-03-30T06:21:00.000-08:00

Silencio eterno....tardes sin sueño....hogar frio & oscuro...pensamientos solo mios....que comodidad, es tal còmo lo esperaba...

pensamiento & resultado...

2007-03-20T14:34:00.000-08:00

Hay demasiadas cosas que la mente desea suprimir..

en ocasiones las desea borrar gracias a miedos,

a miedos como el sentirse más rechazado de lo que ya se ha sentido,

de que jueguen con sentimientos,

de que todo lo que te esta sucediendo es un sueño.

el subconsciente simplemente grita & hace retumbar

"no te arriesgues!!..que tal si solo juega??..& si no te quiere??"

pero la mente hace un esfuerzo en tanta confusión..

"¡¡arriesgate!!...no pierdes mucho..."

entonces tu cuerpo se llena de desicion & te arriesgas,

tu cuerpo tiembla como si se estuviese partiendo..

tus palabras se enredan & tu piel se vuelve de color sangriento.

Al enfrentar a tu subconsciente todo se ha calmado...

así te has dado cuenta q has besado a ciegas...& que te han robado un beso...

te has dado cuenta que eres demasiado paranoico..

te has percatado que probablemente eres especial para alguien...

-Two Witches-

2007-03-15T20:42:00.000-08:00

you give me a reason to live

you are my guide, my light,

so irresistable...

FfUuNn!!!

2007-03-14T18:49:00.000-08:00

Aceptemoslo....se ve divertido...

& me han dado ganas de correr por mi querido..

*Le mando un beso a mi amado..

mmm....

2007-03-12T07:09:00.000-08:00

we hold our hands and think of things...
I look at you and simply think:
"Hope he doesn't toy with me"
but suddenly I look at your eyes and
that thought goes away..
and then I think:
"Is this really real or is it a dream?"
Then I feel your hands..and see your eyes,
I feel your tender kiss....
I know think it's true...

Love Letter

2007-03-07T09:03:00.000-08:00

To whom it may concern:

What does it mean to love someone?
I have ideas.
Love is what happens when you start sweating
For no reason and your heart keeps
Skipping beats. You start stumbling over your
Words and your cheeks turn into roses. When love
Is created, it is immeasurable and will never dry up.

Love will always see the beauty in
Things, the beauty in you, the both of you. Love is
Always there to pick you up when you fall and wipe away
Your tears. Love can make you laugh
For no reason, and hold you just for the sake
Of holding you. When love is found, it is never lost.

This is what I believe love is.
It has been brought to my attention that you
Are waiting for me, and have beenFor some time.
I would just like to
Apologize and let you know that I am on my way. Love
Is something no one should be without, and your Love is on the way.

Love,

What Is Love?

2007-03-04T07:41:00.000-08:00

I ask aloud what is love? is love an illusion or is it real? what is love? you hear love but what is love? love, love, love, but what is love? some one answer me what is love?! I hear you say it but what is it? then you answer it and show me now I know what love is but I love you more than love it's self

Alone..

2007-03-02T08:38:00.000-08:00

This weekend I shall be all alone....walking through the enormous buildings....only thinking I won't see you this time.....missing you so much..

A little bit more..

2007-02-26T07:37:00.000-08:00

"Let's stay more time...please..no matter what they say...can we stay more time together??....do you want to stay more time with me??.."

Fabricating Hope

2007-02-22T18:43:00.000-08:00

I've tripped through the
wicked obsidian-bladed dark
cutting and vicious
to you

The first carress was nothing new
all seem the same at first
same smooth automatic touch
when nothing can be known

We stumble in this interminable night
perchance encounter joy
or the lacerating hate
all by chance

We are our joy, so take my hand
find with me a soft spot
to stop our stumbling
for life

They say another sun shall rise
and all shall be bright
singing of our joined love
bathed by all-disclosing light
"soon" they say "the sun shall rise"
"soon" they've said an shall say

The sun may sleep forever;
enough that the sun sleeps
has slept, will sleep;
so should we sleep as well?

Sweet lady, should we wait
eternity to understand it all?
Some light is in our reach

We can dimly see
Moon-bathe with me;
live a thousand lives with me
this long night.

Moon-bathe with me;
bask in that reflection of
the unborn sun.

Moon-bathe with me,
help me light this dark;
and until the sun should rise
and set all wrongs right
they shall call us
the bringers of light

Be My Penguin

2007-02-20T07:27:00.000-08:00

Every day is Valentine's

2007-02-19T18:34:00.000-08:00

"Enloquecido estoy por amarte una vez más,dale algo a mi existir.
Son tus caricias, es tu palpitar,que llenan mi vivir.
Besar tu cuerpo de la cabeza a los pies,te ponés fuera de voz.
Días sin tiempo, noches de pasión,alimentan nuestro amor.
Mi refugio son tus brazos,dame abrigo por favor,saca el frío de mi cuerpo y mi dolor.
Apasionado estoy, ya no me dejes caer,no puedo vivir sin vos.Quiero tu vida, dame una ilusión,que sea eterno nuestro amor.Miro tus ojos, veo tanta excitación,ya no puedo aguantar.Esta locura que tengo por vos,que sea eterno nuestro amor.Te amaré de todas formas,te amaré y sentirás,nuestras vidas siempre unidas estarán...."

Melodies..

2007-02-15T19:36:00.000-08:00

...How wonderful life is....Now you're in the world...

Día de Amor & Amistad / Valentine's Day

2007-02-14T08:45:00.000-08:00

Amor....Amor....... Disfruten el día, que este día es solo una excusa para decir Te Amo....

Love Song

2007-02-12T17:29:00.000-08:00

whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like I am home again whenever I'm alone with
you you make me feel like I am whole again

whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like I am young again whenever I'm alone with
you you make me feel like I am fun again

however far away I will always love you however
long I stay I will always love you whatever
words I say I will always love you I will always
love you

whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like I am free again whenever I'm alone with
you you make me feel like I am clean again

however far away I will always love you however
long I stay I will always love you what
everwords I say I will always love you I will always
love you...

-The Cure-
To that special someone that's in my heart..

Pencil..

2007-02-08T18:36:00.000-08:00

Sincerely a gorgeous drawing.....seems quiet familiar

Un año de inspiracion..

2007-02-07T08:54:00.000-08:00

Se ha cumplido un año más en este espacio donde comunico sentimientos & pasiones....Espero que siga siendo visitada & que siga vivo este espacio.....

Deseo agradecer a todo aquel que se a detenido a leer un poco de este lugar........& a todas las nuevas amistades que he hecho..al igual que a los que aún tengo & están junto a mi..

Que siga hasta el fin de mis tiempos..

My Dearest...

All I want for Christmas is you...

2007-01-31T18:16:00.000-08:00

I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby
I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish. I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play
Cause I just want you here tonight, Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children’s laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin' oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin'
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me
Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...

:.:.:.All I ever wanted.:.:.:

2007-01-30T17:58:00.000-08:00

The Drug of My Choice

2007-01-30T17:40:00.000-08:00

Hearing music in my head......thinking of you instead

Te extraño...

2007-01-29T07:08:00.000-08:00

I miss you sis....wish you were here..... I shall be with you soon..... I love you!!!.... Remember that you are always in my heart... Remember that always...

The last kitten..

2007-01-24T18:38:00.000-08:00

I'm the last kitten left....everyone passes and gives me love...but no one takes me home!....Come and adopt me....I'm cute....comme please..I need a home & to feel afection...

Love like autumn

2007-01-22T19:02:00.000-08:00

Situaciones..

2007-01-22T09:34:00.000-08:00

*'asi o más obvia?'*

sin palabras...

2007-01-18T09:39:00.000-08:00

Blow..

2007-01-17T17:29:00.000-08:00

Blow me a kiss from so far away....blow me your love like if we were together anyway

Palabras de fin de semana

2007-01-16T20:31:00.000-08:00

"Hola.......podrías darme un abrazo? ...Gracias...."

Lethean Glade

2007-01-09T07:10:00.000-08:00

Show me someplace more pleasing than this
Lethean glade where glad oblivion floats,
And sows the sounds of joy, the fluid notes,
Sublimely intricate enthralling bliss
Of long, warm days of sun to soothe the soul,
Of moonglow through the cool, sleeping trees,
Contentedly coddling in the breeze,
Whispering and stirring as we stroll.
Spontaneously lift your voice in song,
Entwine your tune with the sweet melody
That glad oblivion sings and you shall see
That in this joyous place you can't go wrong;
And when I touch you, all the world is this--
I sing with glad oblivion when we kiss.

Prisoner...

2006-12-13T12:29:00.000-08:00

I am your prisoner.......I shall be yours....love me for eternity.....I shall love you forever and you shall always be my guard.....

Remembering friends....

2006-12-13T12:13:00.000-08:00

*_Me recordò a mis amigos..simplemente lo tenìa que compartir......_*

Everything we never said....

2006-12-04T17:09:00.000-08:00

Maybe if you wheren't such a gentleman... you might have told me you loved me.

Maybe if i wheren't so stupid... I might have belived you.

Maybe...

Thank you...

2006-11-29T08:50:00.000-08:00

I dreamt of you....you were far....too far to reach...

I looked away and when I looked back again you were so close..

you offered me a flower....you offered me a smile....

I offered you a kiss..I offered you my blush...

Your closer..

2006-11-27T06:17:00.000-08:00

It's raining....and your here.....so close...so near...

Now I'm closer to you....but I don't know what to do....should I go on and kiss you?.....or should I wait......

your so close.....and I want to kiss you with all my soul.....

All is full of love

2006-11-27T06:13:00.000-08:00

I wish I could kiss you, but I only get to kiss the mirror......all is full of love....all is full of my love to you...all is full of the wish to kiss you...all is full of your love.

Un día más & uno menos...

2006-11-21T20:13:00.000-08:00

Un día más un día menos de vida..no es para tanto....todo pasará como un susurro....al igual que todos los días....el silencio solo cambiará gracias a la hermosa melodia del violín rojo....esa melodía que me hace soñar....esa melodía que me hace recordarte....

Expecting

2006-11-17T06:20:00.000-08:00

Im expecting you.......hope you come to me soon......come so I can kiss you well

Fragile things...

2006-11-14T17:06:00.000-08:00

Once you are alone you start looking at things in a better & diferent way.....you see all those fragile things with more beauty & care.....you see those things as never before in your life....this is when you notice that you now love....

Forever & for eternity

2006-11-09T17:39:00.000-08:00

We both shall be friends forever & for eternity.........never forget I love you...never forget that even we are far far away, you shall always be my little sister....

Waiting for you...

2006-11-08T19:15:00.000-08:00

-How much I wish you were with me know...telling me what you really feel about me....& holding me tight until we both sleep-

Un descanso...para hacerlos sonreir

2006-11-07T17:10:00.000-08:00

Encantos...

2006-11-03T06:25:00.000-08:00

Como me encantaria besarte.....darme el gusto de probar tus carnosos labios....de que realmente me ames.....pero al despertar me doy cuenta que solo es un sueño & me encuentro muy lejos de cumplirlo....

Death..

2006-10-31T17:25:00.000-08:00

Within these walls of blood and bone
the core of me is lifeless stone
forgetting faith, forever weak
never trust, never speak

under my mask, horror abides
once revealed, it will not hide
my true being, deranged and sick
which side of me would you pick?

my shell is breath taking, not a single flaw
my voice is enchanting, my beckoning call
my body is tight, your perfect dream
but who I truly am, would make you scream

beneath this layer of simple skin
lies a demon bedded within
cold and dark, it never sleeps
evil, mad, meager, weak

within this beautiful perfect girl
lies the death of your perfect world
I'm something never to touch
but you can't deny, you want it too much

kiss my lips, hold me close
this is what you want the most
watch me smile, a gleam in eye
hold your breath, slowly die

sink my teeth, dig in deep
lavish the blood, blood you seep
drink you dry, killing myself
the way you taste, the way you smelt

drinking you now, kills me inside
drinking you now, brings me alive
close your eyes, take a final breath
for you've received, my kiss of death

Happy Halloween!

2006-10-30T18:30:00.001-08:00

Feliz Noche de Brujas!!....

Este uno de mis dias favoritos.....(claro aparte de aquellos dias que neva...o cuando hace frio sabroso....o cuando llueve de manera abundante & no tan turbulenta....llueve de manera que te dan ganas de correr & besar a alguien que amas)...espero que se la pasen bien....& aprovechen las peliculas de terror que rara vez salen en television..jeje...cuidense... Diviertanse!!

ah!!

2006-10-24T18:46:00.000-07:00

Ah!! que estresante...semana de examenes & vaya que me he puesto a estudiar...eh de aclarar que casi no me gusta hacerlo por razones un tanto obvias..pero necesito calificaciones altas..jajaja.....bueno ..disculpa por no escribir...solo en este instante de extremo estress me he liberado un poco para contarles lo sucedido.....jejeje

Me siento aún más demente......solo espero que esto de resultado..jejeje..buena luna...

Getting there..

2006-10-18T17:40:00.000-07:00

"There's a long way to your heart.....I hope I'm getting closer....."

Algo entre archivos..

2006-10-16T17:50:00.000-07:00

"Buscando un sentido a tal intimidación, huyendo de tus terrores
Sin sentirme, sin acariciarme, sin amarme.
Calma que es apetecida por mi cuerpo y sentir."

Strage things inside...

2006-10-09T17:38:00.000-07:00

I don't know why I feel this thing inside......I feel as if you were my other me.....I just want you near...I want to hug you & maybe, just maybe kiss your tender lips........Still not knowing what this is I ask......... is this love??

Cortadita..

2006-10-05T17:49:00.000-07:00

No sé si cortarme las venas o dejármelas largas.Aún asi ya tengo la muñeca desgastada de las veces anteriores....pueden esperar más mientras decido lo que se hará esta noche con ellas...

Jajaja

2006-10-05T17:27:00.000-07:00

Último momento: Gemelo suicida mata hermano por error.

Love of the dead

2006-10-04T17:35:00.000-07:00

A graceful swift of motion

Unseen by the eyes of mortals

Pale as the moonlight

He sat unmoving at his usual spot

The love of my life

Eyes a brilliant blue so deep

Where desire was masked so well

But I could feel his ache

Frozen at the expense of my presence

The love of my life

I know his hunger for deeper pleasure

And only I could satisfy

The dead who rules the night

The love of my life

Gazing deeply at me pleading

How can I resist his pull?

A simple trick to my mind

And he could drive me to the edge

Where I'd beg for more

But he's the love of my life

Four hundred years of politeness

Only for his lady, he shows respect

But his patience is limited

And he's the love of my life

I know all too well

The tunnel behind those blues

There's a longing hidden so well

Now, the time has come for the unsaid

"My lady, the time has now arrived.

Shall we proceed to what I'm here for?"

His eyes so lifeless staring coldly

And he's the love of my life

"Blood to blood, flesh to flesh.

For love, we shall bind for eternity."

Kneeling quietly at his side

Lips to lips and he drank

Tonight is the only night

Where we will take our vows

Guard it to our graves

And forever, we shall be bound

"Blood to blood, flesh to flesh."

The oak tree

2006-09-28T18:31:00.001-07:00

Sitting in the forest...only thinking of something...thinking of things ...

thinking of the world..

thinkig it good

To my friends...

2006-09-28T18:21:00.000-07:00

Dedicado a todos aquellos que se hacen llamar mis amigos & realmente lo merecen.... besos a todos....en especial a Altic, Darkbass (incluyo a la bolita...ya saben quienes son)...a los de la escuela (igual saben quienes son & no reclamen!!)...& a los que se encuentran lejos.....Recuerden que estan siempre en mi corazón....son lo mejor!!

2006-09-28T18:15:00.000-07:00

Love is in...

2006-09-27T13:03:00.000-07:00

The love...

2006-09-26T17:31:00.000-07:00

"My lady, the time has now arrived.

Shall we proceed to what I'm here for?"

His eyes so lifeless staring coldly

And he's the love of my life

A question never asked..

2006-09-21T17:37:00.000-07:00

So far away...... thinking & passing a dumb question through theyre minds... does she/he really love me??....or am I dreaming??

2006-09-19T17:56:00.000-07:00

Cannibal Roses

*face palm/ head desk* mroww

New discoveries.

DA tag :P

by ~pikagirl65neo

Ready for action

Weird engagement thoughts.

Smile ^_^

Thinking about...

Such sweet sorrow...

New things

Thoughts.

The Dance..

Love Prevails Death

The clover...

PLAY

hope..

ShHh...

I'm Back to this blog..

Like a doll..

Apocalyptica..... S.O.S (anything but love)

Mi hija...

Mi primera vez..

I do ....I do

Quotes....

I Have Found What You Are Like

I Carry Your Heart With Me

-Vaya cosas...-

-_Esa melodia_-

..Aquella sonrisa..

FeEeEeLiCiDaDeS A ti!!!!!

"Datos curioso...y probablemente ciertos..."

...Cosas...

Bravo..

::..SeCrEtsS..::

Adios..

I Want to Grow old With you

Día de las Madres

Smile!!

Your song

Declaración...

Melodies...

Cold

Seasons..

Pequeños detalles...

Sola..

pensamiento & resultado...

-Two Witches-

FfUuNn!!!

mmm....

Love Letter

What Is Love?

Alone..

A little bit more..

Fabricating Hope

Be My Penguin

Every day is Valentine's

Melodies..

Día de Amor & Amistad / Valentine's Day

Love Song

Pencil..

Un año de inspiracion..

All I want for Christmas is you...

:.:.:.All I ever wanted.:.:.:

The Drug of My Choice

Te extraño...

The last kitten..

Love like autumn

Situaciones..

sin palabras...

Blow..

Palabras de fin de semana

Lethean Glade

Prisoner...

Remembering friends....

Everything we never said....

Thank you...

Your closer..

All is full of love

Un día más & uno menos...

face palm/ head desk mroww